Over hear thinking about my personal tendencies within myself and my personal tendencies as it pertains to others.
I recently finished a course with Christina Staton Ministries and one of the topics that came up on our last night of class was about self-evaluation and identifying our personal limitations which are our personal tendencies. Our personal tendencies can either make us or break us. We can be the cause of our own self-sabotage. I know for my self that my biggest personal tendency within myself is to second guess myself. I have to work on overthinking and over analyzing every decision that I make. I must believe that God has gifted me in certain areas and I must stand strong in that gifting and not question my talents, myself or anyone else to cause me to feel unworthy to succeed in my gifting. God gave me the talent naturally. No formal training whatsoever. So what, if I did not attend drama school or acting classes or writing classes or directing classes? I need to go with what I do have: The ability to tell a story, the ability to make people think and laugh; the holy spirit guiding me, a degree in psychology,( I know and understand people), a career in human services, life experiences, compassion, a caring spirit,I am a good friend, trustworthiness, a loving heart, spirit of forgiveness, the undying love of my God.
As far as my personal tendencies towards others, I'm working on that, too. I want to open up my heart and just love with abandon. But saying out loud that I love somebody has made me anxious and uptight. I want to shut down my feelings and just make like it never happened. That's my personal tendency as it pertains to others. I don't want to be hurt again. I had a bad and painful divorce. I don't want to feel that type of pain again. But I also know know that you have to feel the fear and do it anyway and to have great love or great achievement in life involves great risk. So I am a work in progress. But my ultimate goal is: "To Live the Life I Read About". Alright, God. I'm gonna need some help.
In harmony,
Peyton
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