The Secret Lives of Church Girls

I am so excited!! I had my first virtual meeting (teleconference) with my new group of ladies that have aggreed to be in my theatrical production of The Secret Lives of Church Girls. 

This was the first play that I wrote and I remixed it by changing the title and adding a new character. Looking at the dates of May 3rd or 4th for performance days.

I have a complete cast and I am praying that God will open up the windows of heaven and pour me out a blessing that. I will not have room enough to receive it!

I have to create a rehearsal schedule and get it going!  See you at the TopTop!!

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On the positive note, I have been doing Zumba on Momdays and Thursdays and walking in between.  I've completed two videotaping's for the Men's Chronicles interviews and tomorrow I submit my play for a call for plays.  Praying that my play gets picked up.

Where have I been? Asking myself the same thing.

Wowee!!  What a year this has been.  It's been awhile since I blogged.  I have been so preoccupied with relationship and emotional issues.  Been worn down and worn out.  People I love with all my heart have died and others have walked away from me.  Friends that I know and love me unconditionally don't live near me and I miss them terribly.  My best friend from high school lost her husband suddenly and it shattered all of our worlds.  What could I say to her to relieve her pain? What could I do to let her know that I hurt, too and that I wish I could take the sting of the pain away?  And my best friend here in Albany has treated me unkindly on two occasions and made me question my friendship and question how I have allowed others to take me for granted and not value my friendship.  Or was it that I didn't set proper boundaries? Had I been too kind, too loving, too understanding, too supportive, too forgiving?  When did I become a doormat to all of the people in my life?  I really love the people in my life and I truly want what is best for them.  I love hard and give freely and encouraging others brings me joy.  But as I sit here, I am questioning everything about who I am.  I sit here alone.  No friends, no phone calls, no nothing..  I have no one to hang out with, my phone doesn't ring, no invitations to anything.  How did I get here?  Everyone who I have given myself to has left me stranded.  Stranded physically, emotionally, mentally and spiritually.  I'm spent and worn down. It hurts like hell.  My only refuge is Christ.  He's what's holding me up because I feel lonely, lost and forgotten.  Praying about when this thing will turn around and how it will turn around.  My hope is in Christ and I have the faith of a mustard seed.  That mustard seed is all I have today.  Praying for deliverance.

Happy New Year!!

Okay, okay.  I realize that today is January 19th so I'm almost through the month of January.  LOL However, I thought I needed to send some positive information out into the universe.  And just update what is going on in my life.

Currently, working on my fourth play titled: "The Men Chronicles".  It's a series of monologues written from a man's perspective or a man's voice.  I know that I am not a man but I am soliciting men to tell me their stories and I am endeavoring to put them down on paper.  I will make sure that I have some men read what I write before I start directing this play.  I really want men's stories to be heard and I want each character to be believable.  Still need to start writing "So You Call Yourself a Man of God?" I have the characters written down but they don't have voices yet. 

I was asked to be apart of a production called "The Zora Tellers".  It's a series of vignettes about the life of Zora Neale Hurston.  I play a small role of Rosalee.  Roslaee is southern,  fiesty, a cusser and strong-willed.. She is a character!!   LOL  I am having fun developing her character and becoming Rosalee.  Been asked to sing and possibly act in March and May.  I don't sing alone ever!!  Usually in a group setting unless I'm in the car or home.  But I made the mistake of singing at an open mike and a friend heard me and now he wants to use me twice!!  Still haven't figured out what to do about it.  I guess I need to talk to him and decide how I can participate, right?  LOL  I guess this is God's way of expanding my territory.  I have read Habakkuk 2:2-3 many, many times.  And on top of that my Pastor finished teaching on spiritual gifts in bible study last night. Pastor said it is a sin to have gifts from God and not to use them. he also said that if you do not use them then it says something about your relationship with One who gave you your gifts.  OUCH!!!   Okay, God.  I will use all of my gifts!!  Thank you for giving them to me and I will use them to glorify you.  I'll keep singing the song I learned this year from Pastor Christina Staton of Empire Christian Center.  "In the atmosphere of your glory, I feel you Lord, pushing me and moving me to where I ought to be".

Lastly, still on weight release journey.  I actually lost 17 pounds last year.  Not my goal but I did lose, praise God.  Trying to get down a dress size by my birthday(February 23rd. Help me, JESUS!!)  and be down 2 dress sizes by May of this year.  Praying that I can do it with God's help.  Leaning hard on Him for help.

Also, follow me on twitter jerseygirlp@twiiter.com and also check out a wonderful group of women who are glorifying God and building up women.  It's called Girlfriends Pray.  They are on Facebook and Twitter.  You can call in every morning and evening for prayer six days a week.  I really am enjoying the prayer at 7:00am each morning.  Their number is 1-712-432-0075  access number 128845

I also need prayer for my health.  Trying to get info a potential health issue as well as maintain my lung health with my asthma and allergy issues.  Pray for healing restoration and mostly WHOLENESS!!  I also need the energy and stamina to do all that God has called me to do.

Blessings!


Peyton

It has been a challenging year

I have been sitting back and reflecting on this year.  It has been a series of highs and lows.  There were a least 4 incidents that took my breath away and some that just made me sit still and just listen for God to tell me something.  I was literally speechless.  Had nothing to say and had no words to give.  I felt exhausted and depleted of my energy at times.  I felt alone.  I felt lonely.  I felt misunderstood.  I felt judged.  I felt betrayed.  I felt neglected.  I felt unappreciated.  I loved too hard and I didn't love enough. People who I thought had my back, let me fall.  People who I didn't know showed up and stepped up to the plate.  I sat, I cried.  I sat some more and I cried some more.  I laid down. I went for walks.  I went for drives. All the while, talking to God and telling Him all about it.  Didn't really have to tell Him because He knows all, He is everywhere and He has all power.  But I like to talk to Him.  It makes me feel better .  And when I can't talk, I like to write it down  on paper and let Him read all about it.  And then there's those private thoughts that I don't share with anyone.  The ones that only He and I know about.  The desires of my heart.  Sometimes when I'm not looking, He shows me that He's listening.  He'll do something to let me know that He hears me and that He loves me.  It's usually when I am feeling neglected or unappreciated.  But through the highs and lows, God has been my leaning post.  He's been my source of comfort.  He's been my strength and my peace. My all and all.

I have learned a lot this year. So, I don't have time for the crazy. Not eating anymore emotional poison or listening to anymore negative tapes either. Spending my time loving myself, my family and my friends. Trying to work on being the woman God would have me to be.  It's a process, so if I mess up or don't act the way you think I should, please don't judge me.  Ask me if I need help or if you can genuinely be of assistance to my growth.   I'm looking for authenticity.  If you don't genuinely care about me it's okay but please just leave me alone.  It's okay if we are not friends. I don't need to be friends with everybody.  I want to surround myself with loving and caring people.  I only want to be in relationships with people who want to be in relationship with me.  Plus, I'm silly.  If you can't handle my silliness and share a genuine, gut busting laugh that's fine.  I'll keeping being me and make it do what it do, baby!!

Yes, a year of highs and lows. Blessings.  Grace. Mercy.  Thankful for it all.  The good, the bad, the highs and the lows.

I've been asked to be apart of production

I was asked to be apart of production at Ebenezer Baptist Church here in Albany.  The director is taking the 9 fruit of the spirit and she wants to have 9 brides and 9 groomsmen.  Now, I really should not be taking this on since I am working on my own production for my church.  But I was curious about it so I asked her which fruit of the spirit she wanted me speak on.  I figured that she would want me speak on meekness or long-suffering.  But she told me she wanted me to speak on love.  I had to do a chuckle when she said it.  I've been studying 1 Corinthians 13 since February and it has been kicking my butt!!  I consider myself quite loving but there are times when people can challenge you and push you beyond the brink of being lovable.  I spent two months on love is patient!! I just was having problems being patient.  Anyway, I had to chuckle and look up at God and say, "So you've got jokes God".  Okay, I see you.  So, with that I knew that God was trying to tell me something. He really wants me to study love but from His perspective of what love means.  God is love and He is the best and perfect example of how we are supposed to love one another.  So, I am writing about love and trying to understand how I can become more loving to my family, to my friends and to my church family.  Looking with loving eyes on how I can be a blessing to others and how I can show God's love through me.  praying and hoping with a holy expectancy that I will be loved the way that I deserve to be loved.  So looking forward to spending my life loving someone and having them love me back with all their heart, mind and soul.

I'm nervous about it but I have committed to
the project.  I truly believe that God wants me to do this.  So, if anyone is reading this please pray for me.

Proverbs 17:9   He who covers and forgives an offense seeks love, but he who repeats or harps on a matter separates even close friends.